Well done Kath.
Ruined EVERYTHING again.
- Friends drifting away
- Boyfriend hates you
- College is shit
- Won’t get into Uni
- Demotivated to do anything about my grades
- Hate myself
- Can’t stop crying, emotional wreck
And people say that you should be thankful for the stuff you have. I am, really thankful, but why can I not seem to keep everything normal or where everyone is happy? I try to keep two people happy, One by lying to them about what happened, another I keep happy by doing something I dont wanna do. And yet, both come right back at me and bite me in the ass. I come clean, leading to distrust and then me telling the friend to take it off facebook because I dont like it. I’m insecure and I dont want me plastered on facebook with my body, half naked to friends and family. Nevertheless on the internet at all. I try to help people and it always goes tits up, I never successfully seem to do anything right (Yeah, cliche of the year, sympathetic story. It’s hardly one of those). I’m simply stating that I feel the most miserable I’ve ever been and just as I start to think everything may be picking up, it slaps me straight back in the face and possibly makes me even worse than before.
Maybe I’m just a lost cause.









